godpleaser

a life lived for eternal purposes

 

it was my husband's birthday last dec. 1. i didn't buy him a gift and for the record this is his first bday that i didn't give him a gift. i just wrote him a letter...(published with my husband's permission)

Dear ****,

This, I think is your 1st birthday that I don't have any gift or card prepared. That does not mean  that I do not consider this day special anymore. Oh well, it isn't actually, what is in a date  or day anyway? I'm not giving any excuse or whatsoever but with all the things that took place these past few weeks, I'd say the day is not as important as the person.

I don't know with you but with me, when I had Nav, I asked myself, "what happened in the past 2 years?" I found a greater depth and meaning to our marriage when I saw NAv. Nathanael id ours. We will be treading this life together with God as our only refuge. I suddenly remembered the vow I made last March 24, 2001 when I told you in front of god and the people that I will love you, cherish you, support you and pray for you. Now, I have a full understanding of that vow. I'm not regretting the time we haven't had Nav - God has a purpose. But didn't you feel the "awakening" when you saw our child? I did. I realized the full essence of being a family...and I also realize the rewards of marrying a God-fearing man.I cannot imagine myself going through married life with somebody else but you. You led me to the right relationship  with God. You are maybe frustrated with what is happening in your so-called "ministry circle" but let me affirm you that you are God's instrument in revealing to me His purpose. I am your fruit. When you share your insights to me and God's revelations, He speaks to my heart and I feel the truth  of God revealed through the words you say.

I encourage you to continue to seek God and be more sensitive to his leading. Don't get tired, just persevere and press on. You may feel like giving up in the long run but hold on to the calling. Let's be excellent in all the things we do even if the reward is not commensurate to our efforts. Let's do everything  as if we're doing it for God. These are the principles I heard and learned from you. Dramatics ba? I mean every word I wrote here.

Now that we are starting all over, I have anxieties. I'm sure you also have. But more than that, I have the confidence that God will see us through every season in our lives. He will be our refuge, strength and our guide. God is now honoring your desire to walk in faith as you lead the family. Nav and I will joyfully walk with you. Carry us as God will  carry you.

Happy Birthday, by the way...

                                                    i love you beyond words, *****

 

Posted by: rbunsoy at Friday, December 05, 2003 | link | comments (4) |